SeaSands in the Sun

I must say my reading style has changed over the years. I used to be determined to read at least a book a month - to ensure I don't lose the love of reading and maintenance and expansion of my vocabulary. That was my personal "KPI". over the years, I realised that by 'forcing' myself to read a book a month, I kinda lost the main objective - the LOVE of reading. So now I just read a book (or two) and take my own time to digest and enjoy them. I  discovered that I was setting these restrictions for myself. Therefore, I don't do that anymore :) Happiness is a Choice! Anyhow, during Christmas shopping this book was on sale. I told my sis to buy it for me as my Christmas gift ..as I was curious to read it, and I thought he looked rad in transition lens. haha #thickskin   His Holiness the Dalai Lama has a lot of wise insights and shares about the teachings of Tibetan Buddhism.  I must admit some of the content confused me a lot and some gave me a wider perspe...

.. that was the question that was asked to me over the past week.  "Myself" - I answered. The questioner wasn't very pleased with the answer. Dug even more and made me talk more about it. The question was asked again.."I don't know" - I said. Talked more about finding happiness since I "lost" it and "myself" over the past couple of years.  The following day, it was asked again.. "To find the meaning in life (I suppose)" - who am I, what is my purpose..  No one asked me these questions before, I felt uncomfortable and drained trying to answer it. I don't have an answer to please the questioner. That wasn't the intention. The intention was to make me aware of why I did certain things in the past and understand it and to ensure it doesn't happen again in the future (so I don't fall into the same cycle). I appreciate that. I am cared for so much. However, I do believe that this journey is for me ...

I haven't written or blogged in a really long time and since I took the day off, I thought I should write. Wonderful day out; so I'm sitting inside with the windows drawn closed. ha. ;) (I will get that Vitamin D and Sea later!) Recent developments - I was feeling pretty lost for the past couple of years and I think I'm in a transitional stage of accepting my past (not that it was bleak or anything like that!) and totally savouring the present moment - regardless what it may look like. hehehe When I turned 33 in early Feb, I realised I was unhappy, lost and unsure about everything; especially about myself. I felt alone and like no one understood me. Impatient, annoyed, and I'm sure, not very good company...this has been building for the past 2 years ever since I decided that Life was bigger than certain beliefs in an organised religion and dabbling in different theories (no, I can't levitate, we have aeroplanes for that :D ). I still believe there is a ...