SeaSands in the Sun

 It's been a long time since I wrote in this blog (why is this a familiar line? haha). I guess with many other distractions I haven't been able to focus on blogging. Let's try it out again. The last post I did was in 2017! Was the concert of Ed Sheeran's Divide tour. That was a fun one. After that I managed to attend one more concert by..BLUE (!) Used to listen to them when I was in school and it was nice when they came to do a concert - all the old aunties screaming at *still* fit uncles..LOL what a joke, but it was certainly enjoyable to singalong and dance. I didn't know that would be the last live concert that I'll be going to till the Pandemic came upon us! Here's a short recap of the years that I haven't blogged about: 2018: Traveled to India, Germany and Hong Kong (yeah, I went crazy traveling and it was really great as they were different experiences. Perhaps I should blog about each destination (IF I CAN RECALL OMG THE MEMORY HAS DETERIORATED!)....

Lately I had this thought about Life. Someone asked me recently about what my thoughts were regarding God. I told her that at this point in time "God" is a word that hasn't been defined or understood by Humans just yet. Just like through time, humans research and find out the reason why certain things happen and such. I used to put God in a box. I used to think He (ha! God has a gender!) was the only Hope and nothing else mattered and having the faith that He is going to make everything ok and this is just a temporary home. Now, I have removed the box. I do believe there is this higher power that hasn't been defined or understood by the human psyche just yet - so "God" is what it's called. Could be energy, could be that our brains haven't evolved just yet to comprehend it. So that's what I told the person. I understand why God was put in a box - it was what I learnt and believed in the past due to the religious background I was raised i...

.. that was the question that was asked to me over the past week.  "Myself" - I answered. The questioner wasn't very pleased with the answer. Dug even more and made me talk more about it. The question was asked again.."I don't know" - I said. Talked more about finding happiness since I "lost" it and "myself" over the past couple of years.  The following day, it was asked again.. "To find the meaning in life (I suppose)" - who am I, what is my purpose..  No one asked me these questions before, I felt uncomfortable and drained trying to answer it. I don't have an answer to please the questioner. That wasn't the intention. The intention was to make me aware of why I did certain things in the past and understand it and to ensure it doesn't happen again in the future (so I don't fall into the same cycle). I appreciate that. I am cared for so much. However, I do believe that this journey is for me ...

I haven't written or blogged in a really long time and since I took the day off, I thought I should write. Wonderful day out; so I'm sitting inside with the windows drawn closed. ha. ;) (I will get that Vitamin D and Sea later!) Recent developments - I was feeling pretty lost for the past couple of years and I think I'm in a transitional stage of accepting my past (not that it was bleak or anything like that!) and totally savouring the present moment - regardless what it may look like. hehehe When I turned 33 in early Feb, I realised I was unhappy, lost and unsure about everything; especially about myself. I felt alone and like no one understood me. Impatient, annoyed, and I'm sure, not very good company...this has been building for the past 2 years ever since I decided that Life was bigger than certain beliefs in an organised religion and dabbling in different theories (no, I can't levitate, we have aeroplanes for that :D ). I still believe there is a ...