SeaSands in the Sun

Lately I had this thought about Life. Someone asked me recently about what my thoughts were regarding God. I told her that at this point in time "God" is a word that hasn't been defined or understood by Humans just yet. Just like through time, humans research and find out the reason why certain things happen and such. I used to put God in a box. I used to think He (ha! God has a gender!) was the only Hope and nothing else mattered and having the faith that He is going to make everything ok and this is just a temporary home. Now, I have removed the box. I do believe there is this higher power that hasn't been defined or understood by the human psyche just yet - so "God" is what it's called. Could be energy, could be that our brains haven't evolved just yet to comprehend it. So that's what I told the person. I understand why God was put in a box - it was what I learnt and believed in the past due to the religious background I was raised i...

.. that was the question that was asked to me over the past week.  "Myself" - I answered. The questioner wasn't very pleased with the answer. Dug even more and made me talk more about it. The question was asked again.."I don't know" - I said. Talked more about finding happiness since I "lost" it and "myself" over the past couple of years.  The following day, it was asked again.. "To find the meaning in life (I suppose)" - who am I, what is my purpose..  No one asked me these questions before, I felt uncomfortable and drained trying to answer it. I don't have an answer to please the questioner. That wasn't the intention. The intention was to make me aware of why I did certain things in the past and understand it and to ensure it doesn't happen again in the future (so I don't fall into the same cycle). I appreciate that. I am cared for so much. However, I do believe that this journey is for me ...